Hmm.

I thought I was doing a good job at pretending... and so far it was working on everyone.
But then, out of nowhere.. someone comes up and asks me what's wrong.
I wasn't showing on my face that anything was wrong... so it kind of startled me that she knew.
It made me feel good that she's not blind to my pain that I've been trying to hide.
And I know she understands exactly what I'm going through.
But I still feel like I can't talk about these things that are getting the best of me.
I don't trust very many people. She had to force it out of me.
Hah. I don't know. I just find it kind of funny that I thought I was doing such a good job at hiding it... while all along she knew.

*sigh*


The song that's been playing through my head a lot lately is What's this Life for by Creed.
Basically because that is my main question.. What's this life for? What's the point? Why should I keep dealing with what I deal with? hmm.
Life is just SO complicating... and I get so sick of everything.
When I feel like giving up... that song is always right there in my head.
It helps that it's got a Christian message to it.
Telling me that this life is worth more than I'm letting it be worth.



*double sigh*