Worthless. That's what I am.

People tell me that I'm not worthless.
When I ask them why I'm not...
They can't come up with any reasons,
Making me think that I'm even more worthless.

Even if somebody were to give me a good reason..
I'd still be worthless in my eyes.

I've learned that it doesn't matter what others think of you..
It's what you think of yourself that gets you deep down inside.

If I think I'm fat... I'll be convinced that I'm fat.
If I think I'm stupid... I'll be convinced that I'm stupid.
If I think I'm worthless... well. you know what goes there.

I just don't see how anybody could tell me that I'm not worthless
When clearly I am.

I'm a bad sister, daughter, cousin, friend, student...
I can never do anything right.
And I cause so many problems for way too many people.

*sigh*

We all need a hug sometimes [see video at the end]

All the Same by Sick Puppies

I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
For certain
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will, to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same

In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

So much for that great feeling..

Today was one of those "Great days turned bad".

*sigh*

Well. In my previous post it said
"I've fallen for yet another guy."

Yeahhh.

So. He asked me out on Monday.

and like 20 minutes ago he called me.

His mom made him break up with me.

This is what she said to him about it...:
"I dont want her to kill herself if
something goes wrong and then you feel like it's your fault."

His mom doesn't know me.

She's never met me, she has no idea who I am.

This sucks.