Obama, FUCK YEAH!



I've never been so proud of my country.
America has finally pulled its head out of its ass.

Sex makes everything better, not gonna lie.
Seriously. I feel like I've lost weight.
And I'm sure it's cause of all this hot, passionate love-making that's been going on in my life.


Hahahahahahahaha.

Damnnn

So I have this monster fuckin' head cold.
I'm so congested and shit.
My nose is all stuffy, but runny at the same time!!!


I think my head might just 'splode.


Thank God for Theraflu!

Wow. I forgot my username.

Hahahaha.
I finally just figured out my login info on this damn thing.
It took me a couple days, but I finally fuckin' got it.
The only reason I came back to Blogger is.. The Used.

Yup. They're fuckin' worth it. :D



Anway.
Hello.

If you've never seen the movie Good Luck ChuckI'll give you a quick overview.
So basically Charlie [played by Dane Cook].. Sleeps with a girl, and after that she finds the one she loves..and goes on to marry that person.
The whole point of this is that I am prettymuch like Charlie. Except for the sleeping with them part. ha.
I would date someone...Or like them a whole lot.. [either situation seems to work in this case ><]And when we break up or whatever, they'd date one of my friends.Except, the friend that they'd date,Would be the friend of mine that they would have never known if it wasn't for me introducing them.
This has happened to me with almost every relationship I've been in.And. It's happening to me again.
Katelin and I have had a thing for a few months now, And a week ago I told her it just wouldn't work. Now, she and Becca ... I dont even know what to call it..
I am crazy about Becca. In love with her, if you will? And the only reason they know each other is of me.
I was told today about them. And went for about 3 periods, Crying my eyes out.
Even though I have a girlfriend now, It can't help the fact that I care so much about Becca.
At this point, I'm at a loss.
And I have no idea what I should do.
I've never cried over a girl like this..

She wears her heart on her sleeve;;

For once I put my heart out there.
It's what she wanted.
Now I feel as if I'm being fucked over.

:[

Windy Days and Girls' Ways

A friend of mine wrote this.


Wind whips around me as I walk through the cold.
The wind turns leaves into blades that cut into me like a girl's stare but the leaves are not soft like "this stare". The light breeze is like a girl's sigh; soft and calming. The mist that sometimes comes with the wind falls like her tears and blue like the deep pools of her eyes. Blowing through the blades of grass singing out like an angel, maybe playing with my hair or gliding across my skin like the feminine touch teasing me wanting to envelope me like a warm summer's breeze.

*sigh*

anyway. I made a blog for my photography.
http://photographylove-lucy.blogspot.com/

enjoy.

It's been a while.

Life has been VERY nuts lately.
Lost a few friends.
Pierced my lip.
Cut my hair.
Made the UNO Honors Orchestra.
Got a new computer too.
And I'll be 16 in a little less than 2 months now.

*shrugs*

Merry Christmas everyone.

I've had this migraine for a little over a week straight now.
I also have the chicken pox.
This is the second time I've had em. :/

A friend of mine's mother passed away on Sunday.
I visited her tonight, and I'm glad it cheered her up.

This has been a long week, and it's only Tuesday.
><

Just stop and listen.

Last night at youth group, we took the last however many minutes it was to stop and just listen.


I think that's what's missing in most peoples' lives, they don't stop and listen enough.

I was sitting there, listening, and I couldn't help but smile.
I didn't have the greatest day today, but I just had this feeling and the smile just took control of my face.
It was nice because I haven't smiled out of nowhere for a very long time.
I feel refreshed.
=]



Oh. PS.
Cortny and I rule.
:)

Thanksgiving

What I'm Thankful for:::

Tyler and Kim.
My brother being able to be here.
The food we ate today.
My dad's job.
My cousin, because he's about the only person I can confide in
[even though we're at each others' throats 99.98299% of the time =p]

It's finally Saturday

This week was so long.
And way stressful.
I'm so glad it's a weekend.
And this next school week is only two days long,
then it's Thanksgiving.
I GET TO SEE MY BROTHER.
I'm so happy.
I don't think I've been so excited for anything the way I get excited about my brother coming home.

How did this happen?!?!

Cash Advance Loans

#@$%&!

My screen name says::
[[can I die yet?]] =[


and somebody messages me saying:
"are you okay?"

.........
ergh.

Never too Late

"Never Too Late"
by Three Days Grace

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

Time.

As a good friend of mine told me today, "Time is not constant, it is relative."
I have no idea what he meant, and still don't.
But at the same time, I knew exactly what it meant.
Strange huh?

Anyway, the whole point of him saying that was talking about having so much homework, and no time to do anything, or get anything done.

I've had so much homework lately, and so many other things to do and worry about.

On Saturday, I woke up at 11 AM, did absolutely nothing with my day, and fell asleep at 4:30 PM.
I didn't wake up until today, at 5AM.
My dad and I went out and bought my mom a birthday card and balloon,
Then I came home and took a shower, found myself a ride for church... and a few hours later, I was at church.
At this point I'm almost losing my head because I'm doing this fundraiser for Orchestra..
I'm keeping track of all this money and I feel like I'm under a lot of pressure.
Anyway.
I get home from church sometime after 1PM.
The only thing I had accomplished was my Algebra homework.
Time goes by, and then we go out to dinner for my moms birthday.
That was nice. Except both of my parents learned one thing new about me that one knew and the other didn't. That was fun I suppose.
We get home, it's a little after 9... and I realize, I didn't do my laundry when I got home from church like I said I would. I also didn't do any of my Chemistry homework.
By this time I start freaking out because I have a test in Chemistry tomorrow, and I have no idea what any of the chapter is about, and I'm already failing that class.
Then I think about how I'm failing Algebra 3/4, and my teacher told me I need to retake the second semester of Algebra 1/2, and then it pops into my head about how I failed the last test I took in that class.
Oh boy. Tomorrow is Monday. What a wonderful thought for 10:30 PM on a Sunday night when you're thinking about the test you have and the homework you didn't do.
anyway.

The whole point of this is that There's so much going on in my life, and I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
It never seems to end.
There's so much drama. One thing after another and another.
I'm so confused over so many things.
But I don't have the time to think about these things because I'm already busy enough.

I need a break from life.
Thanksgiving break is coming up, but I fear that break isn't going to be enough.
Hopefully it'll help me to get by until Christmas break.
But hey, I get to see my brother over Thanksgiving.
So I guess you could say I'm pretty darn excited.


I NEED MORE TIME! >.<

yay halloween.

-_-

It's a new week.

I was sick friday and saturday.
I slept all day on Saturday, and then was up until 3.
And then I "snuck out" last night at about 1:30am.
and I was out until 4.
I guess it wouldn't be considered "sneaking out" because I did try to wake my parents up to tell them that I was leaving.
And when I woke up this morning I told them anyway.
hahaha.
Buuut. I really must say, even though I felt like crap, last night was one of the best nights of my life. And I probably laughed more than I have for a very long time.
I finally got to bed at around 5 this morning.
woke up around 9:30, ate some yummy pancakes, went back to sleep... until maybe 4.
And now... Here I am!!
I hope I feel better in the morning
[health-wise that is.]

We have a short week at school this week.
And I have an orchestra concert on Tuesday. I'm so pumped up about that!!
=]
alright. well.
It's bed time.

But before I go... here's some pictures.

I like my eyes in this picture.


We went downtown, I had my camera,
And I needed to take a picture. :]

My Jones collection.

???

What's the point in anti-depressants if they make you fat and more depressed than you were to begin with??

This isn't good at all...